I think about writing here all the time, I jot down anecdotes and topics I could easily write pages about - but the pressing issues from my daily life (kids, bills, groceries, PTA, Girl Scouts...) take precedents over anything I want to express creatively.
And so here we are. Me, having not even been to this page in over two weeks. Sigh. I wish I had a pause button for life. I could get so much more done.
To all you full time bloggers out there, kudos to you, I don't know how you do it.
I thought it would become easier now that the older girls are in school full-time, but that is simply not the case. My 2 year old spends so much time distracting me because she is thrilled that we are home alone and that I am apparently only there for her own entertainment that I am finding it difficult to keep up with even the most mundane everyday things (like vacuuming and laundry).
It probably doesn't help any either that my husband's job has him working in another city, requiring him to continually stay at a hotel until the work is complete. It was originally intended to be a three week limited engagement, that quickly became six, and possibly may be extended even further to nine.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining (too much) I really like the extra money it is bringing in --goodness only knows that we need it! I am just really, super busy and stretched about as thin as I can go! I am wearing all the hats in this family. Beyond the typical Mom stuff I do everyday (run of the mill butt wipery, refereeing, planning and holding scout meetings and juggling our calendar of obligations) I am finding myself doing things typically relegated to Dad (the fixing broken toys, figuring out how to work out the DirecTV/DVD thingy, weed-eating, taking out the trash) and it really leaves me with very little free time.
I know I've read it countless times in lots of different places - that if you want to be a great writer, the key component of that is simple, you must write.
So I do, most days...
In a journal that I keep for myself alone. That I conveniently leave in a drawer right next to my toilet. I would have to say that on the whole I am typically left alone and uninterrupted for 5-20 minutes even (sometimes) to, uhm hmm, take care of business. Some of my best stuff comes out of me during that time (no weird pun intended there).
But seriously, I can collect my thoughts and actually think.
Hmm, that gets me thinking now. Maybe I should ask hubby if it would be okay to put a computer in the bathroom... No, no, I kid!
But perhaps it would become easier if I knew that this was getting somewhere, that there are actually readers, it would inspire me to find more time. I find the time for my journal because I do actually go back and re-read what I've written. If for no other reason that I like to see all of the clever witty things I've come up with and to discover that in fact things actually do get better -- and at times, they can and will unfortunately become worse than you imagine too.
I'd love to respond to questions, or comments from you...
What's on your mind? Tell me about it... and I pinky-promise that I will respond (no guarantees on time frame)
So, 'Til next time...
